Since I can remember, I have had lots of ideas for my own business. There were so many ideas that at times I seriously considered to become a broker for business ideas. But with the advertising agency JuniorSenior I came pretty close. There is almost nothing I like better than develop creative concepts and solutions for businesses and ensure that their sales improve. And I am proud that we succeed at that quite well.

But still now and then the business ideas keep popping into my head. In addition to advertising and coaching, I am now working on the development of a ‘webshop’. I am so excited, because I am now in the best phase, the creation phase. The design and the copy are almost done, samples of the products from around the world are sent towards me and I visualized the success of this business completely 

Yet there is a fear in me. I know my old pitfall will announce itself in a little while. How many times did I start something, but I lost my interest after the first setback or criticism. To bring a plan to a successful conclusion, I can do very well for others, but not so well for myself.

I decided to do a coaching session with myself. It is so great that I can test myself with NEI (Neuro Emotional Integration) and investigate the source of this extremely annoying trait to abandon a good plan too soon. I define for myself the goal: "I can persevere and make my own plans a success”. This sentence tests weak. Mmmm.

Then begins the puzzle as to why I am not a go-getter in this field. If I was aware of the reason, the problem would be long gone. I discover that I sabotage myself when the reward (success) cannot be reached quick enough. In other words, I am impatient. Imagine that it will not go as I expected.

Then I discover that the first time I felt this as well happened when I was 19 years old. I was a trainee at a school and was teaching English to bold and often very demotivated teenage boys at a Lower Technical School in a deprived area. I remember I was the only "girl" walking around in that school and I felt terrible and sometimes even threatened. How could they send me to this school? This I had absolutely not expected. The result of this experience is that I do not like unpleasant surprises and if I can prevent something unpleasant, I will choose the easy route and abandon the plan. Therefore, I drop the implementation of my plan so easily. Okay what do I do next.

With NEI we replace the sabotaging emotion, in this case ‘impatience and cannot cope with unexpected things’, by something more positive such as ‘I am confident that I can properly execute this idea.’ For this we use acupressure massage, breathing and visualization at the same time. It works. My affirmation: "I can persevere when it comes to successfully implementing my own plans, even if there are unexpected things" now tests strong. Pfff this feels wonderful, now I have even more confidence that this webshop is a great idea and will be a success ;-).

I will certainly present the launch of the webshop on this blog. If you want to know if and why you sabotage yourself, make an appointment for a NEI session. An absolute guarantee for great insights.